So I’m not sure where this blog post is going to go because I’m literally just writing my thoughts and what’s going on in my head right now. Well the one thing that is going on in my head is youtube. As many of you know I’ve done youtube now for almost 5 years and I really do enjoy it. So don’t think that this is a post saying I’m quitting because I’m definitely not there yet. But I have been doing some thinking regarding my channel and the direction that I want it to go in. Also to be honest I’ve been dealing with comparing my channel to other channels.
Let’s be honest it can be really hard to do and while I try not to play the comparison game sometimes it just strikes without notice. I can’t help but look at the numbers on my channel and wonder what I can change or what isn’t working. Or figuring out what is it that my subscribers like to don’t like. I also kind of looked at what other anitubers were doing that I maybe wasn’t doing.
Well basically what I decided to do was to go back to doing more anime related content. I love making content about other nerdy topics but I realized that its gotten really all over the place. I also realized that there are a lot of things that I enjoy and want to make content around. For example I love self improvement and motivational topics but I realized that I think that content needs to be put somewhere. Like for example on my blog in a blog post. I know at one point I had a separate channel but that was too much. So I think my content on youtube is going to be basically all nerdy content. This also means that Nerd News may not be a thing anymore because I do enjoy doing that content but I feel like its gotten very comic/marvel focused and not a lot about anime. But that’s something I’m still figuring out.
Also yes I know my editing isn’t the greatest but I love the rough cut that my videos have so for now that isn’t going to change. Also please don’t think that I’m changing things to get famous or anything like that because that isn’t the case. I’m mostly making these changes because I know that I can do better and I know that there are times where everyone has to improve and see what is working and isn’t working.
So those are some updates that I have regarding my channel and just my overall feelings that I was struggling with. Also I’m not looking for sympathy I just like being honest with my subscribers and who that even I’m not the most positive person all the time and I’m still struggling with comparison like everyone else.
Since so many of us are stuck in our homes at the moment it has given us a lot of time to do some self reflection. Also in my case its given me a lot of time to be on my social media accounts and check out peoples stories, pictures etc. But its also caused me to find that there are many people in my life that are very inspiring and who in a lot of ways I look up to.
Now these people aren’t doing anything crazy such as living an amazing lifestyle, or have lots of money, or anything like that. Many times these people are just so happy and positive that I can’t help but find them inspiring. It makes me look at my own life and think of what I want to change. It also makes me look at my life and want people to see me in that same light and to over all just be happier with the life that I currently have. It also has made me wonder what does make someone inspiring.
Well for me what makes someone inspiring is a few things:
Their outlook on life. In today’s climate everything being talked about is always something bad that’s happened today. Its always great to see someone who is living in the present and is very optimistic with the outlook of today. Now they aren’t terribly optimistic but they do have an outlook on life that makes you think that not everything is bad and to see the positives in the negatives.
2. They don’t make you feel bad about yourself. Usually when it comes to social media it always feels like some sort of competition. Like you have to compete with those around you for who has the better life or looks the best. For me someone who is inspiring makes you feel happier about your own life. They help you to look at your life and feel grateful for it and not negative towards it. If you do want to change something in your life its because you want to and not because you feel it will help you get more likes on Instagram.
3. They make you feel happier. For me when I go on peoples pages that I find inspiring they have me leaving their page feeling happier than before. They give me a feeling like anything is possible and that everything is going to be okay. They also help inspire me to make my day better by working out or eating a little healthier. Or sometimes it’s just inspiring me to pick up a book and do something productive. Honestly its a feeling I can’t explain to well but all I know is that its a feeling that just leaves me feel happy and ready to take on or continue my day.
So those are the reasons that I feel makes someone inspiring. What are some reasons that you have? Comment them down below because I would love to read them. Also check out my youtube channel and subscribe if you like.
So one of the things that I’ve been struggling with has been with me not caring about what people think and also learning that I can’t please everyone.
It’s not really my friends I have the issue with it’s mostly family that I’m still having this issue with. I’ve always struggled with trying to make one individual in my family happy but I’m learning that it just isn’t possible. Trying to do this has been causing me so much stress and also for me just to be generally unhappy. It’s caused me to not love myself and to not be happy with who I am. Plus it’s caused me to compare myself to others in my family since sometimes their accomplishments can be thrown in my face which makes me feel inadequate.
But I’m saying no more! I’ve been listening to a lot of different people that I admire and learning so much about myself and how to just love myself. Plus I’ve been working with a therapist to sort through these issues. Most of these issues stem from childhood so I know that it’s going to take time for me to work on these issues and not feel this way.
The main thing I’ve been watching on YouTube is a lot of Marvel interviews and specifically their panel interviews. The one person I’ve been watching the most is Sebastian Stan’s since he gives a lot of great advice and says a lot of inspirational things. It’s really helpful and has definitely inspired me to be more and not to worry about others that don’t bring anything special into my life.
I know that many people would keep things like this hidden but I don’t mind sharing since I hope that it can help others. Plus to show others that I’m not always a happy puppy but I’m getting through my issues and sadness one day at a time. I also want to show people that there is hope and that you don’t have to struggle with these issues alone. I also like to keep track of my progress and see where I’ve been and just how far I’ve come. For some reason I find this to be fulfilling and inspiring during those dark time’s that many of us go through.
So I hope that this brings hope to someone and that you love yourself! Also show others love since you don’t know what others are going through. Things are going to be okay and I know that all of you will succeed and be happy.
So I’m finally back with a new motivational Monday video and I felt really good recording this video. I hope you guys enjoy it and decide to come out with your own mindfulness routine.
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I know that usually on Monday’s I record a motivational Monday video but this Monday I decided to do a blog post. This was because on Thursday I announced that I wouldn’t have a video for Saturday or Monday due to needing a mental break.
On that day on Thursday I definitely wasn’t feeling my best mentally and was not feeling up to recording a video. Actually I wasn’t feeling up to doing anything. I didn’t want to work out and all I really wanted to do was just sit on my bed and just cry. I was sad and just overall not happy.
How I decided to spend my night instead was by reading some fanfiction, watching some marvel interviews with the actors, daydreaming, and just overall doing what makes me happy. During when I have these moments I definitely want to just be in my room and curl up on my bed and do nothing. Sometimes I will also isolate myself which I know isn’t good. But also during this time I also really want to be around those in my life that I really love and care about. Usually this is my mom or dad because I know that they love me.
I also used this weekend to really work on myself and just enjoy my weekend. I’m honestly glad that I took this weekend off for a mental break. It really did help me and it put a lot of things in perspective for me.
So I definitely recommend taking a break when you can and just using the time to relax. It will definitely do you wonders and it will help you to feel a lot better and refreshed when it is time to go back to reality.
So what do you like to do to take a break? How do you like to spend your days when you need a mental break?
As you can tell by the title I’m talking about Mental Health for this weeks Motivational Monday. I talk about the current option I’m using that helps with my mental health and also please comment below any options that you use.
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As I’m writing this I am so so tired. The night before I slept horrible due to having a panic attack. If any of y’all have had a panic attack before they are horrible and even after it’s over (at least for me) I can feel the effects for hours after. Mostly it’s just the fear of having another one. But I’m blessed that I got through it.
One thing though that I’m trying to focus on is trying to get healthier. I want to start working out more, drinking more water, and also eating healthier. I can drink more water and working out I can work on. But the eating healthier part is what’s hard for me. I love sweets a lot and I love cheese. So I’m trying to figure out the best way to go about these things.
For starters I plan to start working out in the mornings before work for maybe like 10-15 mins and also eating a healthier breakfast. I don’t really like oatmeal but I’m going to try and start eating it. My biggest problem is lunch and dinner. Typically I don’t eat lunch and when it comes to dinner my family orders out a lot.
So I want to know for those of you who have gone through this or currently are do y’all have any advice. Also do y’all have any healthy recipes that you could recommend. Preferably for lunch or dinner. I mean I can eat salads but that may get old really fast. So comment those down below and to be honest I’m terrible in the kitchen so easy recipes would be awesome.
But y’all have a great day and please remember that you are you for a reason!
So one of the things that I’ve been doing on my self-care journey is by meditating. So why not use this time to discuss it. So check out the video to know more and comment down below if you’ve ever tried meditating.
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Happy Monday everyone! I decided for this Monday’s video I decided to talk about my personal self care journey. So check out the video and also comment down below if you practice self care and what you like to do to help you practice is.
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So I decided to make a video on this topic due to something that I was dealing with today that I will explain in the video. So check out the video and I hope that this helps someone if they are dealing with any sadness. Plus I hope this helps everyone to start their week off on the right foot.
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